I
have spent years literally hiding from the world and from the one thing that I
have craved for all my life. Though I was in love with the idea, it scared
the daylights out of me. But slowly and surely my desires for love and
companionship lead me to the closest thing to love, if you can call it
that. It sure felt and resembled the sensations
that mimic love. But in hindsight, I realize that it has all been a figment of
my longing desire to be loved that lead me to looking for love online. But little
did I know that things would take on a life of its own once I returned
stateside.
The
First Encounter
From
the first moment we met, it is like something so familiar about him. You
know that feeling you get when you first met someone. It is like a jolt of
electricity coursing through your entire body. You are now feeling
sensations that you have never felt before. Well, at least not in the
same magnitude as you have been accustomed to experiencing. I knew
though in my heart of hearts though there something about him that was and
still is different.
The
Interrogation
We
shared brief stories about our lives and walked each other down memory lane. I
had felt like I had known him all my life, like he was a long time friend. Strangely
enough, I was completely at ease with him and he made me feel safe though an
hour before we were mere strangers who met over the cyber airwaves. We talked
for hours and straight through a movie, like lovers whispering hoping to have an
opportunity to closer to each other.
The
Kiss
And
omg that first kiss light up my entire body like a switchboard on fire. I was
alive for the first time in my 40 years of life, I was really
'"ALIVE'". You know what that say about the first kiss, it tells you
everything about whether he has the potential to be ‘”the one’”
The Challenge
He
challenged everything I thought I knew about love and he side swiped me
and struck me from out of the blue. I was completely dumb founded for a whole
week. Then it dawned on me, he really likes me.
His
eagerness which by the way normally would be a turn-off wasn't. Go
figure!!!! He wasn't afraid to tell me how he felt and was determined to let me
know his intentions were genuine. He went out of his way to take notice of
things I valued and wanted. He focused on me and getting to the weird and
quirky things that made me tick.
I
cannot honestly imagine how I lived my life before him nor do I care to return
to how my life was before him. I am beside myself with anticipation and the idea of
being in his presence exhilarates me and fuels my imagination. Am I infatuated?
Maybe that’s how it started, but my dear friends, it has blossomed into much
much more than a simple crush! I absolutely adore the notion of us and hang on
to each and every word with bated breath.
I have
always dreamt of this very moment. This moment in time where I can rationally
and with 100 percent confidence that I can confess to you that I have driven
way beyond Smitten Ave and well on my way to Lover’s Lane.
I
know not what the future holds or how it will unfold, but I do know that there
is no place I would rather be and no one I would rather discover life’s many
mysteries with than you.
-Lost N Love!!!
