Lost Enamoured: There are two sides to every story

When I see you, I will know you are the one. The one that has stolen the missing piece to my heart. The piece, without which my life's puzzle remain incomplete.

How does something so simple allude us so overtly and even till this day plays tricks on us, tormenting us.

Destiny will bring us together. It is destiny that will bound us for a lifetime and into the next. It will be in your hands, for it is how it was meant to be, and how it will be.

I have waited a lifetime for someone like you, someone who understands me,  and accepts me, embraces me, faults and all. It is with you I find peace and bring calm to the chaos that ensues and threatens to engulf.

It is you, that holds the key to unlock my heart. The key that I have kept hidden away from those who have tried to lure me with their false charms and mislead me with their promises never ending. It is a the key that safeguards the secrets locked away in my heart. There can only be one keeper to key to my heart. 

For a lifetime I would wait, for a lifetime I would endure until destiny brings you to my door. Until then I will stare aimlessly into the distant skies in hopes that somewhere out there you are searching for me. Patience whispers my content mind  to solemn soul and to my eager heart which grows anxious with each passing day. He will come, he will complete the casting and then our story shall begin. For ever story has two sides.

                                                                          -Lost Enamoured 

Lost's Visit Down Memory Lane

This picture reminded me of someone from my distant past. We worked together at a local Japanese Restaurant back in San Antonio while I was studying. He was obviously of mixed Chinese and Hispanic decent. Such a cutie. I had such a crush on him. We spent many evening stealing glances at each other never really voicing how we felt or exploring the undeniable attraction that we felt towards each other. It was just fun and exciting, I guess to have this silent attraction for each other. Gave me goosebumps he did!! Distant memories still linger and tickle my fancy and I think of him each year around Chinese New Years. I wonder what has become of him? His smile and presence lit up a room and his laugh carried across the crowded room even with the bustling sounds of chatter and dishes. He used to come in with his costume so proudly displaying his ancestry and rich heritage. '*Sigh* Memories they are simply lovely!

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

Lost's Perspective:There are no wrong choices, just not the best choices!!

Though sometimes I find myself questioning even ideas and thoughts that I have always revered and upheld, there are times I can't help but wonder have I done enough, do the people around me know how much they have impacted my life and helped kept me going even on those crazy days? Those who know me well and even may have had the fortune ( or misfortune which every prospective you may choose to view it from) to have work with me on any one of my many projects, know me well enough to know that I am not only a avid idealist, but conversationalist who loves to share her ideas. I believe that I help improve myself by helping others. Though it does sound a bit self-serving, trust me when I say I always put others ahead of myself. Especially, in situations where the interest of people I care about come into play. I am the first to admit that I am nothing without the support and love of my family, friends, and colleagues. Because lets face it, I do not live on an island with a population of one. Oh, contraire my dear! We in fact live amongst others in a global community of peers.   We cannot survive on our own isolated from the world. I know that some may find away to argue with me on this one, but I stand firm on my belief that this is true to the best of my knowledge and is based on my experience. For it is the love and kindness of others that feeds the flames of life that ensures the engine within us all continues to chug forward. Motivation and inspiration is all around as I have always claimed it to be. Sometimes the very thing that inspires us, ironically test our resolves. It pushes us to our very limit of tolerance and begs the question what now!!????  Which road do I take? What if its not the right decision? What if I make the wrong choice? But before you throw down the towel of despair, I genuinely believe that there is not '"real wrong choice'" just not the best choice. For things always workout for the best in the end whether it was as we imagined it to be or desired it to be. Those very choices are like breadcrumbs that are left along the pathway of life that leads us back to whence we came. Don't live life with regrets! Simply learn from those not to right choices and remember that bittersweet after taste that they have left linger in our mouths for the next time hopefully you will make the better choice if ever you are faced with the same dilemma again. This time you will not only be wiser, but more informed and prepared for what lies ahead. 

On the eve of this most auspicious Chinese New Year, I wish you all a very happy and prosperous new year and may love, happiness and good fortune continue to shower and fill your heart with contentment! XXX 

Lost's Paradox: Lost n Found

Can something truly lost ever really be found? I mean if you have taken something precious and dear to you, boxed it up and hide it so well that over the years you somehow forgot where you placed it. Even though you desperately scramble about to search for it, search for its whereabouts to no avail. Something so hidden away that you are now faced with the dilemma that it will never be found. That all those years, you kept it hidden away to safeguard it from those who bared false charms and who indeed meant nothing but harm, now that you are ready to open up and share that you realize that it’s all unfathomable and you fear that now that the day has come, you will not be able to give yourself fully and without hesitation. Engrossed with irrational fear and trying to rationalize its meaning and sort out the overwhelming realization that you have allowed the years to pass without ever really giving love a chance to flourish and grow.

But regardless of how hopeless that the situation may feel at times, you realize that destiny and fate still have a hand yet to play. So all hope is not gone and in this life I have always held my firm belief that we were all mean to share our lives with another. This is how it was meant to be and this is how it will be. You bide your time, and wait your turn for the final hand to be played and for everything to come full circle and complete your duet. For life’s serenade is a duet not a solo ballad. Fear not for what lies ahead promises to be far more exquisitely serene and is simply beautiful. So, patience my mind whispers tenderly to my eager heart and soul which craves to be fulfilled and complete. Until now, my life’s puzzle remains incomplete.

                                                                  - Lost n Found

Natasha Bedingfield 

- Soumate

Invincible Lost: I am woman hear me rawrrrrrrrrrrr...

COURAGE not the absence of FEAR, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear. Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood. 

I am not afraid of TOMORROW, for I have seen YESTERDAY and I love TODAY. Many of us crucify ourselves between two thieves...regret for the past and fear of the future. What we seek we shall find; what we flee from flees from us!!!

                      -Invincible Lost

            Fergie - Big Girls Don't Cry         

Lost Enthralled: Retreat, regroup, then go forth & rediscover thyself!!!

With each breathe I struggle to take, I can feel my weary heart ache

It yearns to be roam free, to soar up amongst the distant clouds

Leaving behind the spent emotions, unchained, no longer shackled to the past

The past that has haunted me, imprisoned my will, laid captive my desires

Stunned as if frozen in time, revealing in the stagnant essence of the torment

Afraid to move past, afraid to let go, afraid to forget something that once mystified

Titillated, taunted, and teased playfully ingraining images that danced in my mind

I crave to be adored, to be worshiped, and elaborately adorned with the simple notion 

The simply delectable notion so sinfully sweet, too tasty to the very last drop

You secretly stew up deliciously wicked ways to devour more

You deliberately allow it to simmer, to abide the succulent juices to ooze

Coating the ravenous pallet that lines your being, 

To engorge, to feast of the essence of what you desire

Will the overwhelming  craving linger endlessly taunt me 

Thus igniting the thirst that can never be quenched?

-Lost Enthralled

Lost in Retrospect: Our lives sometimes leads us down unsuspecting paths that may sometimes seem endless and relentlessly cruel, take heart for nothing happens by chance. There is a higher force at power will undoubtedly guide us back to the path that we were meant to follow. These detours are filled with life lessons that are bittersweet and sour at times. But like most other occurrences in our lives are set out to reveal the conspicuous  and illusive purpose that drew us astray. We must absorb and learn from these life's altering events and accept and forgive those who have trespassed against us or maybe spin the truth to their own devices and to suit their own selfish means. So, when you find yourself wandering aimlessly or lost your footing, simply do as lost does. Retreat, regroup, then go forth,  and rediscover thyself!!!

Nostalgic Lost: Forever Lost

Another day begins, the sun rises and brings forth the rays of promises 

Promises of a new beginnings and fresh start for renewed hope 

But there are times, that I wander down the hidden corners in corridors of my heart

The hidden corners out of sight, where I have resided those delicate memories 

Memories that have long since been etched into my soul 

I remember how it used to be when nothing else matter but you and me 

I miss you, I wish you could see what is so plain to me 

Although you are here and I see and feel you near, I miss you and me. 

I remember when you said how happy I made you 

I miss those days when you'd call just to say "hi" 

There were days it was so hard just to say good-bye for a while. 

I miss the old you- and the old me, the old us that could just sit still 

Remember how we use to talk for hours and never run out of things to say. 

Your voice it lingers in my mind, playing tricks on me 

With you time simply stood still, minutes seemed like hours 

Days seemed like weeks, I miss us as I remember how it used to be 

when nothing else matter but you and me 

Now, I remember days gone by, the deafening sound of silence lingers 

I wish I could erase the wrongs and bring back how things used to be 

When everything was so simple, but now time doesn't stand still 

I pray for the strength to let go of the past, to move on 

For what lies ahead promises renewed hope and love so deep 

A true love that is eternal, it bounds two souls for a lifetime and carries over till the next.

-Forever Lost

Lost's Reflection: We are simple in many ways, but we are as complicated as they come. Simply because we are a myriad mix of emotions, some more volatile the the next. All my life I have felt and considered myself unique. Never quite fitting in to the niche and able to blend completely and fluidly. Don't get me wrong, I am a social chameleon of sorts feeling quite comfortable in just about any given situation because well.. I adapt easily and effortlessly. Just don't be fooled, by the outwardly state of comfort which appears before you, inside I am yearning to break free and burst outta  my comfort zone and running  free, exposed down the streets of life. This weary soul cannot be contained and tamed. I make no excuses for my sometimes explosive emotional bouts. I am more sensitive to people and my surroundings. Always found it quite easy to read certain people I may appear as an open book,  but there are many hidden chapters that are buried within the the maze that I claim as myself. I am forever in search the missing piece to my life's puzzle. I desire to just to be accepted as I am and crave to be understood. I know in my heart of hearts that destiny will come through in the end and all those things that have alluded me all my life will come full circle and complete the casting to my own personal story.  For now, I am forever lost in my own thoughts  that one day it will all be reality and not just a dream.

Lost in Route: Sit back and enjoy the ride!

Ever felt the reflection looking back at you, seeing right through you. Past all those superficial adornaments that we all take on in efforts to make ourselves for presentable. Standing almost bare, exposed for who you are flaws and all. That very reflection can see past, the facade that others can not distinguish or make sense of. We all play our part in this life's rendition of '"This is my life'". Some of us better at our own roles than most. Maybe taking on the role and making it our own. Even manipulating to suit our own needs, but there are somethings you can hide no matter how hard you try to sugarcoat things. Some of us even attempt to fool ourselves into thinking this is our reality, but when in fact is just your subjective take on reality.

There are some of us who blend in much easier and find ourselves at ease in just about any situation. We tend to have many who flock to be close. Because lets face it, the moth always flocks to the light in the dim of the moonlight and by candlelight they come in droves to hover over the warmth that radiates from the within for the warmth it signifies so much more than meets the eye. I think that each and every one of us craves to find the warmth, that radiates and allows us to lose ourselves even just for a moment in time. As I have said before, not all good things were meant to last. Some were meant to be relished just for as long as the flame burns from within fueling the fire which allows the embers to ignite. This most amazing chemical reaction that ensues when two souls cross paths is such a  beautiful and simple chain reaction.  Sometimes we are lucky and the flames burn for eternity and beyond. 

Lost's Reflection: The search for life's inspiration is a journey that we all must take. Some of us take the more scenic route, that takes you sometimes a lifetime to reach your destination having taken maybe detours with a  few more speed bumps along the way and other the more direct route. It is those challenges that add character and toughen the exterior. They are not a reflection on us as an individual as much as it is a reflection of our choices. No one is perfect and there are no two stories that are identical. Some story lines more colorful then the next. And others more unsavory and seedy, but hey they are as unique as each and everyone of us. Opportunities for inspiration are all around us, don't close the door or burn bridges because you never know whats around the corner. And who doesn't love surprises? So, buckle up, sit back, and enjoy the ride.....ready? Bring it on:-)

Lost in the Sunrise: Here I am

What once was but an empty vessel that harbored a broken soul

Here I stand before you, someone you used to know as whole

Even though a love that once reigned true, has faded into the blue

I once saw something in you, which made me to want to stay

What else is left to say, now I must continue this journey one more day alone.

Moving forward into the blue, who knew, those bittersweet memories they’d ensue

I have learnt a few, insalubrious lessons from our mistakes, our heartaches
I pray that they have given way, allowing us to breakthrough
To escape the melancholy gloom that looms over us

So dark and dreary threatening to engulf us whole

All those awful things that were said in hast made us doubt our beliefs
In something we once consider fate is now but a distant memory
I know in my heart of hearts, your absence has left a the hole inside my heart
But even so, as time passes its slowly but surely the once parted now becomes whole

They say what does not kill us makes us strong
Every once in awhile, I find myself wandering those empty hallways of my heart

And when I feel it taking over, I find myself crying,morning a love that got away
Now that I have come to accept, and moved forward without feeling any regret
The road ahead is long, and the journey most likely treacherous
But I have my life ahead of me, even I will confess there are days I just can’t face
I know accepting what happened, how things played out, and forgiving the past
Was what we had to do which allows us to let go

To make right a grievous wrong, and  allow us to move on.

-Lost n Retrospect

Jason Chen - Here Am I (Official Music Video) Prod. By Nine Diamond

Lost Thoughts: Regardless of the impact, the human condition is vastly perplex and more complicated than  some may like to  portray it to be. Take heart,  love is eternal and forever, even if it never returned, for true love requires no reciprocation. It is given selflessly and without expectations. So, don't hesitate to love fully and openly for as long as you love with all of your heart, you are always true to yourself there is absolutely no shame in doing so, because the alternative is not to feel at all. Regret is harder to live with.