I always fancied myself a romantic at heart. Whilst most of us preferred the more traditional more orthodox road. The insanely unorthodox version of myself sought the more challenging path in search of the one thing that has eluded me all my life. During my life long journey, I have loved and lost. Even finding myself drowning in tears of sorrow, grieving the loss of what I once cherished so dear. I, like many of those romantics before me felt we understood what being in love meant. But unbeknown to me, I was under the illusion of being in love. There are many emotions that can mimic the physical afflictions of being in love including lust and admiration. I spent years trying to over analyzed dynamics of failed relationships trying to understand what had went wrong in attempts to avoid the tragic re-enactment of disasters. I haven't that the best of luck in the affairs of the heart.
This year, I am determined to step into the new year with an open mind and heart. I bring with me into the new year, a budding relationship that has blossomed from the most innocent of interactions.It has grown stronger with time. Though it has challenged all that I have come to know and understand about what it means to be in love, it has reined true and emotions run deep and profoundly impacted my life like no other.
Love isn't the uncontrollable desperate feeling of needing someone, it is in fact knowing that you could probably go on living without him, but making the conscious choice not to. He sees past my faults and embraces me whole. The warmth of this radiating smile comforts my longing heart. For he is the calm that tames the raging seas of your heart. When there is turmoil, he is the driving force that guides you during the darkest days of your life. He is the one who is patient and understands me in all my bouts of madness. Still smiles at me each day in the same simple most beautiful way. I found myself and got lost in him. What a mind-alteringly liberating feeling! There are many unknown variables and hiccups along this journey, but I am confident and eager to discover what lies ahead.
This year, I am determined to step into the new year with an open mind and heart. I bring with me into the new year, a budding relationship that has blossomed from the most innocent of interactions.It has grown stronger with time. Though it has challenged all that I have come to know and understand about what it means to be in love, it has reined true and emotions run deep and profoundly impacted my life like no other.
Love isn't the uncontrollable desperate feeling of needing someone, it is in fact knowing that you could probably go on living without him, but making the conscious choice not to. He sees past my faults and embraces me whole. The warmth of this radiating smile comforts my longing heart. For he is the calm that tames the raging seas of your heart. When there is turmoil, he is the driving force that guides you during the darkest days of your life. He is the one who is patient and understands me in all my bouts of madness. Still smiles at me each day in the same simple most beautiful way. I found myself and got lost in him. What a mind-alteringly liberating feeling! There are many unknown variables and hiccups along this journey, but I am confident and eager to discover what lies ahead.
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